Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours

:Chua Huiling, Christine:
.:21 going on 22:.
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-2:35 PM

din go work todae coz i am simply too sick..argh..head was spinning when i woke up tiz morn..hadta lie in bed while i send msg to huimin to help me tell herni dey all i not goin to work..mi work requires me to talk..den tuition requires me to talk..how to talk when i start coughing violently at e end of each phrase? my voice is simply too hoarse also..argh..

must get well b4 thurs..otherwise dey wun remove mi wisdom tooth for me..den i have to book another dae for the op which i dunn wanna..mm..

juz registered for nus and ntu sum daes back..ntu super efficient..so fast send me a confirmation email on my payment and registration not like nus tts takin ages..so worried..coz i value nus one a lot..since i cant go overseas..hai.the uk sch wanna take me in unconditionally..but idun have scholarship..so wads e pt..

aniwae..i applied for med as first choice in nus..and i msg ms loh and mr tek for letters of recommendation..and..weeling juz reminded me tt..its only when i am shortlisted, wil i need e recommendation letters..argh..how now..do i msg em back?? God help...

okies..beta go off to take med and slp..tml gotta work halfdae coz angela is off on course and herni cant cover so mani ppl..gotta handle the reports for her..


-3:22 PM

Happy Easter...

argh..mi sore throat wun go away..neither would mi cough..and mi head..argh..like one hundred hammers on it...when i squat or make sum movement, mi head will feel like it has a hundred splinters going thru it..cant take e pressure when i squat..

went grandma hse aft church for lunch...den fell asleep dere..at first dun wanna wake up wan..but mi bro wanted to go hme..

aniwae..i came across these quotes when i was looking thru some e-cards...

"You are not here by chance but by God's choosing. His hand formed you and made you the person you are".

He has allowed you to be here at this time in history to fulfil His special purpose for this generation.
Roy Lessin.

and my fav one:
To every thing there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven.
Ecclesiastes 3:1.

How can I say thanks
For the things You have done for me?
Things so undeserved,
Yet You gave,
to prove your love to me.
The voices of a million angels
Could not express my gratitude.
All that I am and ever hope to be,
I owe it all to Thee.


-4:36 AM

woke up wif tiz lousy sore throat and cough..been going on for a few daes...aft mi fever..argh..so horrible..cant sing...and i dun feel like talking..im super highly irritable now..

aniwae..huimin sent me tiz msg..and at tiz pt of mi life i realli treasure the msg a lot..realli seem to be speaking to me..ok..it says:

In life, everything happens for a reason.
Ppl dont meet by chance, but by fate.

In meeting u, however,
who cares abt the reason?

i'm just glad i did.

interesting way God used huimin to give me tt msg..i've only known her for like only one plus mth coming to two..but even so we are really good frens..

its realli been a horrible saddening wk for me...must b tts y i fell ill coz i hardly ever...i know very well that everything happens for a reason..to me..the meaning of fate its not as tt tot of by the modern world...i believe my fate is in God's hands..as in..wadever tt becomes of me in e future..its not fate as in fate..argh..dunno if u noe wad i mean..aniwae..i know all this..but....haiya..in ani case..e msg sort of woke me up...every single line seriously represents wad i feel...

except mayb the last line..


-4:52 PM

woke up earli todae coz hafta go main church for Good Friday service..but we had bus to ferry us frm jurong church to main..ha..den at main..me, kok sin, shirrin, gwen and mi sis sat in a row..ha..shirrin and gwen..so much to talk and look at me keep luffing...haha..nt goin to say wad dey laugh at..ha..

aniwae..e sermon was abt the same as last yr..i noe tt..but dunno y..i am still inclined to hearin it..i stay awake..i tink its ok no matter wad others think..i tink its abt a new perspective abt it..each time i hear it..accordin to amanda it has been e same sermon for years..but i tink its like readin the bible..same text..but ppl dun get bored, do they? its abt a new idea and revelation each time you read..and i tink e sermon is an effective way to reach out to non-believers..

at the end, Ps Seaward asked for altercall...shirrin apparently raised her hand..den she din dare go to the front herself..mm..in e end doreen went wif her..i was tinking..i sld have juz gone wif her..y did i hesitate in the first place? wads mi prob? shes my tutee and my fren..argh...not going to do tt in future i hope..

aft church..went wif gwen, kok sin and hb to eat at bugis..so much trouble finding place to eat...juz cant decide and all look at me..aft tt..gwen left for work..the three of us shopped at bugis..actualli its more like me an hb shop and kok sin followed..haha..suprised at his patience man..den following tt..we went far east level one..den aft tt kok sin went back first..hb and i continued walking..really must walk..otherwise i dun exercise, whole dae eat and grow fat onli..besides..its been a long time since i shopped..really ironic coz i actually work in town..saw many ppl todae..couldn recognise em immediately esp the guys..coz armi..den everithing change..hha..

feet aching real bad man..thanks to my shoes..argh..haha..


-4:56 AM

juz came back from planet shakers concert..super nice man..its not indoor stadium..its juz a big tentage..and all of us just stand or sit on the floor..real cool man..den got tt kinda disco lights..and the music was good..really got the atmosphere..

this wk was one busy wk...imagine..going to work..den at night i got to do my scholarhsip essays and its not like i know how to answer every single qn for essay..mi dad even had to personally send my hsa and ocbc forms..haha..got scoldin for last min work..haha..

i love piloting..but i guess i cant b ..my eyesight cmi..haha..

-FeEl nOt wIth YouR seNses bUt wiTh yOur HeaRt-


-2:56 PM

juz sent in my psc scholarship form ..changed my options umpteen times lor..and i dunno if i chose correctly..i filled in everything tt was blank there..like..i filled in all 7 options for uni..hha..actually i dunno if i really wan a scholarship..coz its like i wan dentistry or med..scholarships are juz back paths for mi other courses if i cant get those two..and i dunno if mi choices are correct..really pray God close the doors tt are not for me..so tt its pretty obvious wad i sld do..mayb..dun let me be shortlisted for the interviews if its not for me? haha..coz i detest interviews..but den again..i dunno..go for the sake of experience..so tt next time can b etter? i really really dunno...

dots..imagine..i goin to uni..BUT..i dunno wad course..dunno which uni..dunno which scholarships...juz count the probability..so much possibility..argh!!

someone help...God help...coz i suppose no man can help much...


-3:45 PM

toDay was one of e happiest daes man..one of reasons is tt i dun have to work coz i took leave..haha
aniwae..was suppose to meet wx, eileen and ck's mum at pasir ris at 2pm...was suppose to leave the hse by 1230 coz i tot the journey is one and a half hour..but..e moment i step out of mi lift and walked a few steps, the sole to my white high heel shoes came off..i was worried tt i will b late and miss e ferry or smth..but had to go back to change shoes..no choice..den i wore e more painful shoes..haha..

aniwae..i reach lakeside station at 1250 like dat..super worried i wld b late as wx said many times cannot late..prayed like for half e journey..super worried..cannot slp like wad i normally do on e mrt..haha..but i was earli..thank God..reach at 140 like tt..wx reached even earlier..den we were tryin to guess who was ck's mum..wx even wanted to ask one lady lor..luckily din..coz she wasn ck's mum..we wld end up lookin silly..haha.

den we took e bus ride to e jetty..ha..got ns guys dere to check our pass lorz..lolx..den at the jetty..got so mani ppl..muz wait and queue..actualli..e thing starts at 4 but dey wan us go earlier..e boat look like a cruise lor..i was expecting the bung boat we normalli take when we go ubin..and suprisingly..tekong looks a little like a chalet...i was expecting bushes..ahah..

the ceremony was nice..all e marchin..really cool and smart..the three of us were like tryin to spot ck..coz he is in front row, seventh person from left of falcon coy..haha..i din noe squid oso front row..in any case..dey could see us..but we cldn see them until wx took photo and super zoom it..hah..spotted ck coz of his armi specs..ha..

den finally..when the announcer say dey have finally graduated..they all threw their caps..was a really exhilaratin ceremony..i mean..e caps were like suspended in the air for so long..coz diff ppl threw at diff time..but by e time i switch on the cam etc..it was over..so sad..really nice lor the scene..ahah..

den we took photos..got one S16 photo minus ken, coz ken got tea party as he is one of the awardees..best platoon recruit sia..haha..e guys look really smart in their attire...den met jeremy and took photo with him..haha..talk to him in e face for the veri first time..he look nice too i must say..wx say he veri shuai..nice eyes...haha..

was a really memorable day..i dun regret takin leave..coz the next time i go will prob b mi bro's which is seven yrs down e road..ahah..


-3:30 PM

results were released at 2.30pm todae..sum ppl knew theirs at 12..was realli anxious abt it..even yang yan oso say mi fingers were cold..and i was gripping mi stuff realli realli tightly as i queued to get mi results..b4 tat..mrs cheng had announced e names of those who got 7 an 6 distinctions...i had hoped tt mi name would b amongst those named though i had a feelin it wun b..and it wasn..oh well..

mr tek wasn as stern as b4 when he saw me..so i had a feelin i had done well..yet i din quite wanna believe i had done well..ok..wad am i sayin..aniwae..when it was mi turn to collect results..tek asked me what i expected..i cldn say anithing..i was like.."dunno..veri scared"..den he gave me mi result slip..and i saw 4 As..and i took a double take coz i felt like i was dreamin..i wanted to make sure dey were As..and not Bs..and dey realli were..i got ungraded for mi S papers..but at tt pt..it din matter to me...now i feel i sld have done beta..but oh well..its ok..ahah..i am super grateful and contented with mi lot..i mean..throughout mi two yrs in nj..i haven got a decent A b4 except for j1 end of yr bio..but tt was like borderline..and now..all of a sudden i got 4 of em..tek prob din believe i cld get an A for phy coz he wrote B when recommendin me..den xiao la jiao..prob tink i wun make it coz i failed chem for prelims..but i got an A..at least tek bothered to help me..spend hours wif me individually ans mi qns..it paid off..xiao la jiao..so impatient..i told miself at tt pt that i wld pray for an A for chem and stick mi result slip on her face..haah...now i have done the former and obviously i will not do e latter...mi b4 in eng..its gd i suppose considerin mi class ppl gettin Cs..but its weird coz sum of em actually got As in O levels and in prelims..

mm..i prayed for this for i tink coming to 3/4 of a yr le ba..coz i started in mid yr 2004..coz i failed sub..din get proper grades..realli thank God for tiz wonderful miracle..though i prayed for 4As, 2 dist, A1 gp..the 4As meant e most to me and i thank God for it..realli..hehe..juz talked to jeremy..we both got exactly the same results except for chinese..so qiao..ahah

going mindef scholarship talk tml..realli want it..though i wan medicine more..but i flunk s papers..so ...c how la..hhah