Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours

:Chua Huiling, Christine:
.:21 going on 22:.
::28111986::


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*Disneyland.
*Maldives.
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-5:02 PM

sigh..so tired..since i started work last wk..i OT everidae..do refund..count how much to refund those ppl who got indigoz exchange hsbc i-cheques..den find their transaction history-the thing i hate to do the most..haha..i cheat doin tt..den finish le..type the info into excel..tt one i like..dunoo y..but mi eyes are..i hope e power dun increase..its alreadi super high..the vision juz blurs off aft a while..haiz..super grouchy in the morn...always black face at xinyi..hha..luckily she quite patient..hha..but i get pissed off sths..but shes nice la..
lookin forward to mi med attachm at Mt Alvernia Hos..haah..i quitting hsbc aft chinese new year juz for attachm..haha..
i have got to lose weight..i grew fatter by so much..haiz..cannot fit nicely into mi tight clothes w/o lookin fat..haha



-3:05 PM

went shopping at orchard wif hongbei after church..bought two tops and a green skirt..haah..i have a thing for green now..hongbei lost her white mango top at sum shop in Annex..we went treasure hunting for quite awhile..before we went treasure huntin e sky was bright..when we came out..it was dark..haha..but still cannot find..she say nvm but i tink she quite sian diao..mi feet hurts..

why do i feel lost and devoid of feelings? as in..dunno..nvm..



-3:43 PM

went for contagious praise..tot its quite short though..din seem like 14 songs..but quite fun lar..wanted to jump...but sharon and hongbei beside me din..so i din..haha..sharon din seem veri comfortable..prob coz veri diff from her church..i love the skit..so farnie..mann and josiah..haha..mann realli acted quite well..can whine so well..haha..but i tink i caught her trying to stifle her laughter..haha..but e skit like din quite have an ending..haha..



-5:46 AM

mi dad juz bot a baby shark..he says its to accompany the big big arowana..im like??huh??arowanas eat meat and although shark also eat meat and tiz breed can supposedly survive with e arowana, its baby fish vs big big fish..when we first put e baby shark in, the arowana was chasing aft it..and now..just 3 hrs aft the shark went into the arowana tank..i cant find it..and the arowana tt is always..literally always very hungry..is NOT hungry...rats..i tink it ate the baby shark..all mi dad's fault..haha

haiz..i am sick..aft one daes work plus OT at HSBC..did refund..now got slight dizzy spells, flu, and sore throat..yucks..luckily todae holidae...but i am still going contagious praise la..haha



-2:59 PM

went work todae at 1pm..at unilever..betcha nv heard of it b4..hah..its a compani tt control sales of lotsa stuff-lipton, ponds(e facial brand), dove, walls ice-cream, organics, and lux..recruit express call me like at 1130..while i was using e perlini silver solution to make mi silver stuff shiny..juz took it although e pay is realli so low-$5.50/hr..its at boon lay..was supposed to take 249 from boon lay interchange and alight e 2nd bus stop..and i counted wrongly coz was smsing and alighted at e third stop..and i FORGOT to scan mi farecard..so irritain..so mani times liao..its a deduction of 2 bucks lor..i tink all e times i forgot to scan add together got $10..so irritatin..y must i use adult fare..argh..din i was so pissed off with miself..almost walk into a dead fish with mani flies infested in it..realli..in e middle of e pavement was tt dead fish..yuCks..dunno y its dere in e first place..i sorta shriek there coz all e flies were flying ard mi legs..luckily i wore pants and no one else was ard..den i ran off..so tt e flies wld go away..so gross..

there i did receptionist again..dunno y e agencies love to get me to do e immediate recept posts..wasn as high class as samsung asia..did basically e same stuff..quite pro at it le..but got quite bored aft awhile..coz not as hectic as samsung asia..summore e computer dere cannot use wan..

got tiz interestin thing happen..a gp of ppl from HSBC came in..so i called for e person dey wanted and asked them to take a seat and wait..but dey din..dey looked ard at all e cabinets and posters..it happened tt e cabinets showcase all e foodproducts of e compani..one of e product is red wine vinegar..den de gp of ppl started discussin how red wine could b vinegar and mayb e product may have turned bad etc..den finalli dey got a conclusion..smth like vinegar comes frm red wine..i m like??huh?? hah..den one of em turned to e poster of phylllis quek wif her lux ad and ask if its phyllis quek or fann wong..one of e other ppl say is quek..and then dey all (all males lor..lolz..) stared at e poster and scrutinise everi aspect and argue if its fann or phyllis..even her smile..ha..

ohya..one of dispatch guys came earlier..den he started talkin in tamil..i din realise tt he was on his mobile..so i stared at him wif mi eyes super big and mi mouth open..was goin to say i am a chinese..when he pointed to his fone..haah..super paisei..

when finish le..i went to jp..bought sum stuff.so i can make brownies tml..hehe..to kill time..first time lei..



-3:19 AM

juz msged sum ppl in S16 if dey wanna go for contagious praise..ken replied real fast..hes out todae lor..coz he got psc interview..left squid and ck at tekong..haha..coz dey same bunk wan..he was sayin tt e interview is realli hard and e interviewers v intimidating..hah..must prepare miself for it too..12 ppl in e panel..juz like e sapphire interview..aniwae..de guys wil b out tiz wed..



-5:27 PM

juz read peishan's blog..chanced upon it while i was looking thru friendster..so nice lor her blog..got her own skin..music-fen xiang by SHE..her fav singer....and got tagboard...mine so not nice..coz i dunno how to do those fanciful things..argh!!aniwae..i read one of her entries and she wrote about the past two years..her reflections and stuff..so i decided to write abt mine as well..timing not realli rite..but its ok la..beta late than nv..haha..

well the past two yrs have passed like so quickly..without ever noticing..e mani zillions lectures, tutorials, breaks, lunch..and prob lect and tuts again..haha..but when u r in e lects..u feel as if its nv goin to end..always cannot wait for break where mi class will chiong all e way to e canteen, clog up the cai fan store and dun let other ppl buy food..haah..me and weeling will b e first few gurls to chiong w e guys..guys mostly ck, ken, juncun, mingyang and squid..den we one class wil book one whole length of e canteen table to eat together..haha..an experience nv to forget man..though sum of our class mates like sharon and wei xin were not with us..dey prefer to eat durin the lunch period..where de rest of us pia homework or talk crap and fiddle with e class system and put our own cds to listen to songs..hah..i tink its beta to eat lunch during breaktime instead of lunchtime coz break is onli 20 minutes while lunch is 45..so..obvious use the 45 mins to do hwk la!!haha..break time record le..coz smths e lec and tuts will hold us back..and by e time we chiong to canteen, put..no..literally..throw our bags at e cubby pigeon holes and grab our wallets..and queue and get our food..we r left with onli 5 mins..smths..we onli have 5 mins to do e above stuff..and prob one min to eat..haha..but we all succeed..all success stories..sld see it man..we encourage each other to faster faster swallow..haha..i rmb..tt time..judy with her fav her bao dan, veg and meat and rice..haah..den if e nxt lesson is ms loh's bio tut or lec..no one ever dare to b late..we always swallow our food no matter how hard..and tiz happens like every tues..so ..hah..training every tues..at 10..den e farnie ting..we all run like siao to class..so long lor..den ms loh will start luffin her head when she is like strollin her way thru e walkways and all of us..one big mass..with our big bags haven even strapped on properli dashin our way thru e other students to get to class..aft a while she gave a bit of allowance..coz she found it quite farnie..all of us dashing..haha..i was late once..with sharon and squid and e rest of acs guys and even leeting..so ms loh din let us in..so we sat outside and tried to listen to tutorial and copy wadever was on e board..super comical..all of us squashed to the doorway while not tryin to look like we r obviously listening..and e lightin and whiteboard were so irritatin..got e reflection stuff..so hard to read..so we ended up like passin msgs and papers down so tt everione outside knew wad was going on..haha..even ms loh was tryin to stifle her laugh..she down dere um chio..haha..oh ya..did i say earlier on..me and weeling always finish our food first realli fast..and we walk off first so tt can reach class..den e guys..esp juncun and kenneth..eat finish later..but appear nxt to us while we r walkin to class..dunno their legs long or wad..but weeling and i walk realli realli fast le..and ken..well..hes not exactly v tall.. abit taller than me onli wad..ahah..

oh ya..i oso rmb e pe sessions..coz our class pe happens to be last lesson for both sessions..so one hour lesson wil become 2 or 3 hrs..we borrow pe room key and play together..realli fun lor..all e ball games..we invent our own rules..like..e person to get the ball into the goal has to be a gurl..and guess wad..when the gurl got a ball..all of us push her with e ball into the goal..haha..our class play v v well lor..even the pe teachers like tammie ho oso get veri excited and scream with us..hah..i always love our captain ball..even the canoe ppl will try their best to delay their going to trainin jus to play with us..i tink its thru e pe sessions tt realli bond e class together..den got one time..aft pe..moses got his guitar..and i help ck borrow e oac one..and dey play while e rest of us sing together..realli fun..den de guys started to show off their skills..haah..so show off..hah..but v nice and veri fun..and smth aft pe..me, weixin, and actualli like half e class..down dere at grandstand piaing homework..most of e time is tek's physics assign..den i dunno and wil be like movin from one person to another to ask or juz borrow from joanne those tt have handed in..smth its math..and i juz ask ken..haha..coz hes veri nice..always help me wan..hah

and tiz is juz mi class..mm..how to say..on the whole i have grown reallli attached to e class..03S16 roXs!! its a well bonded class ..all of us tink tt way no matter what others from other classes may tink..though all of us r busi wif our own stuff..we r still close..i like em more than fairfield 4A although its 4 yrs compared to a mere hectic 2 yrs ..i have frens in 4A whom i am closer than sum in S16..4A..fun class..but i wasn close to it as a whole..but i reallli like S16 from e bottom of mi heart..e gurls to guys ratio is like 1:2..but still v nice..there r cliques..but we were quite ok la..with e gurls..i am quite ok with all of em..guys oso la..but i did flare up at MY once..immensely irritatin and annoying..during sum ping pong/badminton game aft e sum exam...den stupid CK wanted to splash water on me to extinguish e flared up flames in me..haha..and sth i get irritated w HY's qns.forever asking why..intelligent qns..but i duno how to ans..and hes qns come in grps..i dun noe which to answer..but hes nice la..wil teach me stuff until i thoroughly understand it and wil definitely try hes best to ans your qn..if u got presentation rite..present to him first, he wil ask u all e possible qns..until u noe your material inside out..hah..no kiddin..w gurls..i prob got pissed off most times by sharon..but prob coz of tt we r close frens too..haha..ironic..mm..i am closest to weixin in class..shes a realli mature yet crappy gurl tt can help me with stuff tt i have probs with..and she is not e type to look down on you or anithing..she noes all mi paisei events..haha...like the HY event..oh Man..ha..she goes all out to help wan la...a good listener..hah.dun mind me whining wan..can talk abt anithing..den..mi other realli good fren is kenneth..oso same ting..help me with all mi subjects..and listen to mi complain and whining..realli a person tt veri kapo..always msg me and ask me abt stuff abt other ppl..haiyo...oso got chien kai..a fren tt i became closer to during second yr..encouraged me and helped me with lotsa lotsa stuff..too mani to name..a v sensitive guy who like knows when i am upset or got sth bothering me..realli tot me lotsa stuff...dey r realli diff from mi sec sch frens..and i realli thank God for directin me to nj, to 03S16(6B) to meet these realli special ppl..ppl who will leave footprints in mi life..was suppose to be in S15(6A), e supposedly top class in triple sci stream-got pushed down coz i take chinese and 6A ppl dun..though there r two fairsians dere-jing and candice and none in mi class except me, and though i noe quite a number of ppl in 6A..tinking back i prefer 6B although i wanted 6A at first..ha..i thank mi father for strictly opposing me when i insisted tt i wanted sajc instead of nj..imagin wad life would b like if i realli went to sa where all mi fm frens are..and thank God that i din get mi dad's hints to go to hc..haah..nj beta la..haha..

wow..write so much..but its 2 yrs...haha..so nvm la..



-3:46 PM

e megacreativity book got mani mani nice quotes..letme tell u sum of em..

1. If at first the idea is not absurd, then there is no hope for it. Albert Einstein.

2. Probable impossibilities are to be preferred to improbable possibilities. Aristotle.

3. Everything that looks great now, once seemed impossible. Chinese proverb..cant rmb e chinese version le..ha..

4. Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat..We must find each other. Mother Teresa.

5. A person may die, nations may rise and fall, but an idea lives on. Ideas have endurance without death. John F. Kennedy.

6. To believe in something not yet proved and to underwrite it with our lives; it is the only way we can leave the future open. Lillian Smith.





-3:32 PM

y cant mi parents juz understand abit??
keep getting scoldin tiz few daes..first it was when i was playing with mi bro, i accidentalli pushed his leg onto e CD writer and it became damaged..whole dae got scoldin from mi dad..den todae i was just tryin to ask where a particular VCD was and check if all e VCDs were where dey were supposed to be when mi dad say i was screamin for no apparent reason..said i was a parasite..whole dae ask bro and sis help me do stuff..but i was juz askin..u noe..enquiring and mi bro din ans so i asked and asked..i juz wanted to make sure..i meant to help u noe..so wad if i made a mistake and tt all e VCDs were where dey were supposed to b..i juz wanted to ASK!..den aft tt..mi mom put yellow noodles into mi bowl..and i said many many many many times..i DUN eat yellow noodles!! ok..mayb i do..but i Dun like em!!!so pissified!! mayb i shld juz shut up..and tt was juz wad i did..ignored mi parents e whole dae..even at e pasa malam..din talk much and i gave tat pissed off look..

enuff of tt..mayb i juz have a loud voice..
aniwae..im readin a book..called Megacreativity-5 steps to thinking like a genius by a Russian PHD named Andrel G. Aleinikov...i din buy e book la..i saw it accidentalli in church and juz flipped thru it..it was Sis Emily's..she borrowed it from SIM.. she say lend me..got to return tml and i juz started readin todae like at 930pm..not even halfway thru..but quite interesting la..

Is it possible to have a round square? No? haah..the bk gave mani ex..but these r mi favs..

1. Boxers fight in a roped square which is called a ring tts round.
2.A square drawn as a geometric figure..its sharpest corner ends up with a dot and a dot is round. Hence, every square is round or at e veri least, its rounded...haha..if i write tiz in exam..e teachers wil tink i am crappin mi way round e rectangular exam paper..
3. Many city squares in Bombay are round.

Tink of sth tt is round, yellow and sour.

Lemon??hah

read tiz:
1. angry man with jaundice-round face, yellow skin, sour face expression(metaphorically sour)
2. mood( explanation is since a mood can be blue, it can also be yellow)..ha..wad kinda of ex is tt.. haha..
3. yellow balloon under acid rain
4. medicine pill

okie..gotto continue muggin e book..make mi brain tink..coz its been quite a while since i last mugged..haha




-3:34 PM

so bored..stil jobless..as in no perm job..
waiting for reply from e clinic..coz i applied and went for interview for e position as a clinic assistant..not realli an interview..more of dey tellin me what to expect for the job..
just received a call from weixin..she got lobang for medical attachment..the thing is they need abt 6 ppl..but now only got her, me, chunzhen and weeling..we gettin tiz attachmn thru our medical senior..Iris aka mother earth..haha..and cz and wx cca senior tian hong or sth like tt..anyway..weixin is workin at sph til 25 feb..and my clinic job..tt is if i get it..starts on March..so its kinda clash..coz medical attach is abt two weeks..from 230 to abt 1030..haha..cool rite..night life of doctors..and it will prob start aft we get our results..so..i duno..
dun even noe which to pick..like what if e clinic calls and say i am selected..do i say i am waitin for an attachm and give up e job or do i take it and forgo e attachm..daddy say if clinic calls first..juz take it..coz its equivalent to attachm when i talk abt it durin interview..but wad if attachm calls first..haiz..nvm..God will give whatever He wants..He will plan mi life and the path i should take for me..

Psalms 127:1
Unless the Lord builds the house, they labour in vain who build it; unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman stays awake in vain.



-1:10 PM

i am sOOO tireD..whole dae starin at tt com..
went back to e same company again..haha.dey wanted me..coz Aarty still sick..todae was more interestin..i did e same stuff again..but todae i managed to clear 2 boxes, one big one small, of letters and magazines..ok la..almost clear..i sort out wadever i could wif e help of e computer..den put into the correct division's pigeon holes..left behind wadever tt i could not..tml let Aarty do la...hehe..so proud of myself..the big box realli realli veri big lei..everything took me abt 4+ hrs lor..coz must do e normal recept duties as well..and i finalli can operate that irritain phone..can connect ppl thru e system w/o cuttin off ppl's lines..haha..i was so afraid of e phone b4 tt..coz i kept cuttin ppl's lines off..haha..made fwens with another cleaner auntie..tiz wan malay one..

lunch was horrendous todae..the chinese cleaner showed me a place to eat where it was cheaper..rice with veg etc. for $3.00..den dun need eat the delifrance..$7.00 lor ..so ex..aniwae..i went to e eatery..called noodle world or sth..den i decided to eat e $4.00 suan la ramen..so yucky ..and so spicy..spicy still ok..its not even nice..so..ARGH..such a torture from e first mouth..i swallowed most of it down coz din wanna waste it..sld hv listen to auntie and eat rice...luckily dey got give an extra bowl of soup..help me swallow..argh..so uneatable..cant believe anyone could come up with such a thing!!i could not finish e last bit..so unbearable..rushed to toilet to gargle..yucKS.mi lips were so reD...haven eaten sth so unplatable for a long LOOng time..i tot it would b nice coz those i ate at crystal jade and other places were nice..yucks..

anyway..went back and cleared the boxes..hah..time passed faster doin tt..otherwise i will get bored..i worked half and hr OT for both daes..unknowingly..coz..e job agency say until 6..but infact is until 530..haha..so too bad..e company has to pay 1.5x e normal pay..francis din noe i work so late yesterdae..but he nvm la..still pay..hehe..

while i was dere..e chinese auntie talked to sum guy who work in e office..she was tellin him tt she doesn think e recept job fits Aarty coz she gets sick aft workin for one month..she say tt if e job is not yours to take den no matter how u try sum obstacles will come your way..she say e gurl b4 Aarty oso like tt..work for a while den sick..den resign or sth..previous one oso..mm..e way she said it..i tink she is a buddhist or sth..i tink wad she say is sth true la.but de way she put it..idunno.... i tink wadever job will have its own problems and ppl do get sick from time to time..but it sld not b e criteria for which whether one is suited to tt job or not although if God doesn wan u to have a particular job, sum problems will come your way..mm..i dunno..

tml going shoppin with jing..yAY..finalli ..coz actualli suppose to go todae wan..end up she make brownies at home..to pass time..haha.. so tIred..goin slp early..so shag..



-3:30 PM

sOoo TireD...but i must write this..haha..tink it will be v long..haah
first dae of work at Samsung Asia..din even noe where it was lor..e add is 83 Clemenceau Ave UE square..nv even heard of b4 lor...haha..pei pei frm e job agency at international plaza-e one with e glass door at 23rd level..called tiz morn when i was still aslp..mi mom woke me up..dey say got urgent request for receptionist..den must wear formal..hah..dey forgot to tell me to put makeup coz korea and jap companies veri particular abt outlook..and realli lor..dere everione look nice nice wan..but dey tell me oso no use..i dun have make up..onli lipstick..ha..den pei pei and adeline(oso from agency) told me how to go dere..but dey were like..here..turn left..den right..den go up..haha..

so finally found mi way dere..haiyo..e agenci tell me e wrong bus lor..luckily i ask e station control ppl at city hall..aniwae..tat place so classy..everyone wear jacket wan..i tot i v formal le..but i m e most unformal of e formal..ha..den aarty, the original receptionist briefed me...so had to take mc coz she had fever..throughout the dae, i took calls-external and internal and boy, i hate that phone..no phoneS..got so many lineS...den i dunno who to refer the matter to, and when i connect extension i accidentally cut off e line..to e BOSS-francis summore lor..haha..den when ppl had to look for sumone, i had to run thru e staff list manually coz i din noe how to work e com excel..when i finally figured out how to work e excel..it was like 4++ le...so late..anyway..i oso signed e outgoin and ingoing courier stuff...nv seen so mani DHL stuff b4 man..hah..luckily e courier guys knew wad to do and tot me..haha..den i got to put e correct documents to e correct pigeon holes...took me a while to figure out their acronyms..ohya..i also controlled their electronic door..had to press a button under mi desk to open otherwise ppl will start banging and pressing the bell tt wld irritate e staff..den sth had to do all e stuff at one go..i oso made fwens with e cleaner auntie..she help me look aft e recept when i go toilet..sum ppl dere r realli frendly..others..haha..nvm..dere got other country ppl..china..korea..jap..den dey speak their languages..realli interestin.. pei pei v nice..call me to ask me how is it..haha..

i tink i had e most ex lunch..no la..but quite ex la..went delifrance to eat..coz i din noe how to go to other buildings..haiz..and record time-10 mins..din dare go back late ..sld have come out earlier lor..lunch from 12-1, i came out at abt 1230 den had to withdraw money..diao..

den at abt 5, trisha from kelly services-another job agency called to ask me to go to sum place at Dhoby gaut to do data entry..six bucks an hour..hah..e farnie thing is dey employ me depending on how fast i complete e data entry..e agency must have chosen me coz i type quite fast durin e typin test tt dae..ha..dey din noe..i can slow down..so tt they pay me more..whahaha..but i rejected it cos i wanted to c if i got medical attachment..so i asked her to wait a while while i consider..i ask mi dad help me call gleneagles and mt E..i oso called em myslef...got pissed off lor..coz apparently, e hos din understand my dad..but e funni thing is dey understood me but one of em rejected me and the other told me to call e nxt day..i wanted mi dad to call earlier for confirmation...cant believe mi dad din explain properly...and reply so slow..end up e company ask sumone else lor..dotz.lose my money..10 daes abt $480 lei...but now thinking..mayb its beta la..focus on medical..which is what i really wan..i tink i wun mind if i get no pay la..juz wan e experience..

den aft tt..while i was takin train hme..at chinese garden..so near mi hse..i suddenli realise i gotto tuition shirrin..so took to boon lay..den went her hse..haha..aunti susan cooked chicken curry and i ate it for dinner..super nice..den tuition started..hah..aft tt dey called mi dad to go eat too..coz mi dad normally fetch me from their hse to bring me hme..haah.started arguing with mi dad over e job thingy..but now i tink..it doesnt make a lot of sense la..haah mi argument..nvm..juz argue to get a kick out of it..so oxymoronic..hah

realli tired though work one dae..too high class....and stressed..so long din stressed le..haah.aft A levels..mm..go catch sum beautY sleEp..ha



-3:59 PM

feEt veri pain..coz i walked since morn..ok..morn..went wif win and jing to international plaza to job agencies to get job..one of em..we got typing test..i type e fastest hehe..with e most errors too..ha..60 words per min..quite fast rite..ha..dunno if i wld b faster if e paper i was suppose to read and type din keep falling...nvm..prayed b4 i did it.. coz i was quite scared of it ...dunno y..hehe..actualli i juz realised i sld have called hospitals for med attachm...goin to do tt tml..hope dey accept and give me one asap..e best nxt mon..haha..

another batch of frens went tekong todae..actualli i wanna go dere and c how it looks like..coz i always picture it to b like ubin...jungle..bushes and bushes...and more bushes..haha..but apparently dey have bunks..like duh..jing went dere with lester..she said e place was quite ok..wonder wad dey will b doin dere..

aft goin to international plaza..e three of us went shoppin at orchard..walk until leg pain coz i was wearing heels..din wanna wear tt pair tt made me fall and hv e big fat blue black..literally from orchard station all e way to douby gaut(dunno how to spell)..bought some working clothes..quite cheap coz those i bought were like 50% sales..got a good bargain man..summore its clothes from U2 and G2000..gd quality stuff...

den i waited for hongbei for 20 mins..so tt can go youth service at main church..service was quite nice..realli quite nice..ha..went for e service for e first time..i tink e whole youth like noe who i am le..not tt dats a bad thing..hehe..bro raju first intro all e new comers..as in first time go wan la..den hongbei was askin me to stand and i din wan to..den he said the two gurls dere from jurong..den no choice must stand..deb dey all recognise me la..den pastor seaward halfway mention my name and mi bro..dunno if he was catchin me for talkin..oops..but i din hear y he mention it..i was v shocked apparently..and mi face was RED..dunno y oso..haha..everione ..turned..like coordinated like tt..so mani heads turned..hah..preacher was evangelist from sri lanka..talked abt dreams and destinies..Nelson Mandela oso..quite interesting..

for e whole dae..i din dare call or ans too mani sms..so irritatin..i had to off mi fone and on it periodicalli and have lotsa sms coming in at one go...y?? coz me din wanna charge mi fone when it had onli one bar..wanted to wait for it to b totalli flat so tt e battery life wun b shortened...end up like tt...argh...



-3:31 PM

woke up earli today..went for interview at an agency-recruitexpress...brought winnie along as well..luckily so knew roughly how to go and she with her perfect eyesight could see the really small words that showed us that we were in e right dir..anyway..the building is JTC summit..when we went into e building...we were like..wow..so pro..must take visitor pass wan...ha..and it looked as if it was so obvious tt e two of us were lookin for jobs..even e receptionist could just tell tt we were going to 30th floor where e job agency was...must b a lot of students went le..aniwae..we got to e correct lift(they have diff lifts for diff floors..luckily win saw tt)..den e farnie thing came...

we tot we were not on the 30th floor when we were..so we were like deciding whether to step out of the lift anot..i tot we were on the 13th floor coz i saw the number 13..turned out to be lift no. not e storey...ha...den tiz guy had to come in and tell us its 30th..haha..look so dumb..den we walked into the right unit..and walk right out..until i said vera(e person who called me) said unit 5..den we walk back in..haha..i asked the ppl dere what i was suppose to do..so dey juz gave some forms for us to fill in...while filing in..win and i made fun of e qns..coz realli dunno how and wad to ans..so farnie..there was tiz guy waitin for his gurlfren..read newspaper..haha..i tink he was prob luffin behind e papers..listening to us...haha..den..we tot e person would come to collect e forms..but no..we wait and wait..and no one came..den i went to ask em..

ha..finalli e interview..win went in first..haven 5 mins she came out..i m like...wad kinda interview is tt...den i went in..ha..e interview is so simple...e nj one was worse by i tink 100 times..hah..den i made vera explain e contract..coz i din wanna sign b4 i understood it..den when i finished..i talked to win abt e interview..vera asked both of us if we wanted to work at tuas..transport provided..haha..both of us rejected it..she asked me if i wanted to b a promoter..i oso reject..haha..so e two of us waited if dere were anithing else..end up no lor..and no one said lor..den when i asked e person..he told us to wait..wait and wait but no one came..argh...we walked right out..den from 30th floor go down..mi ears...one popped and one din ...so unbalance!

win went to meet cong jing at east coast for bladin..haha..coz hes goin ns tml..i went home..den at nite when to tuition shirrin..shes beta le..sigh..all mi close male frens all book in on 6th and 7th..haha..nxt time outin will b all gurls..ha..wil miss some of em...



-3:47 PM

went back to school todae..coz got to take mi uk application forms from mr tek and send em..was supposed to meet him at 945..den i late-bad habit lorz..got stuck in some jam at clementi..and reached at abt 1010..coz got to walk the long long way up..side gate closed..so diao..aniwae..when i went dere..saw squid..hair so long..din cut..summore nxt dae book in..ha..he say go dere and let em cut for 2 bucks..easier..haa..but i tink will pain coz his hair quite long..dey wil jus shave wan..wun care..ha..aniwae..i called tek and he cancelled mi call..i tot he was teachin..end up he was havin meetin..opps..ha..he msged me to get from ms punitha..den i went staff room, used tt irritain telecom ...she din come out..den she came out wif kevin sim...yucks lor..kevin sim..dun like him..look at me like some little thing tt cannot make it when i asked him abt us uni..aniwae..i waited for sim to go away and asked her abt it...she gave me e form..and guess wad..i read e referral letter..i am expected to get 3As and 1 B...ya..den i msg tek to get mi other two papers..e payment and acknowledgement slip..so he came out..ahah...he got shocked when he saw me readin e referral..sorta snatch it from me...

aniwae..he put everithing in a school envelope and signed..and i went home...den i tot send by DHL..46++ dollars..got scoldin from mi dad..he said so ex..ask me do by express...so i went post office..asked e woman..she say express will take 7 workin daes but the dae dey send out might be 4 daes after...so long..cannot wait lor..coz got to get dere by 15 jan..so i called mi dad...end up he was in meetin..i din noe..i tot he was teachin..so i waited for half an hour..den i got irritated..and decided to do speed post..32++dollars..den i rmb i was supposed to write smth and i din..so i tore open e envelope(tek sealed until so tight lor) and wrote it..bought a security envelope for one buck and asked e woman to help me ....thankGod she so nice...i asked her to give me a paper clip she oso give..den help me check everithing...as in EVERYTHING...haha..coz i tink i look like a little blur gurl..haha..den finalli settled..pray tt it reaches there on time and i get positive replies..though mi aim is NUS medicine..haha..its nice to see tt ppl everywhere want u lar..haha..hehe..



-3:55 PM

todae i sort of woke up at 6++ super earlie i noe..but coz mi whole famili was so noisy..bro and sis preparin to go sch..dad and mom helpin em..i was like..er..semi conscious..tried goin back to slp but was unsuccessful..was suppose to wake up at 715 for dental appt at 845..but ended up getting up at 745-750..hha..mi mum kept wakin me up..den i got so irritated and finalli decided to get up..but was late aniwae..den i gan chiong..and i fell..so paisei..there was tiz guy who saw..he stunn diao..den wanted to help..but saw tat i was ok..so he walked off..of course got to act ok la..otherwise how!!so i sort of flip my hair, got up, acted pro and continue walkin though i noticed tt mi big toe had an abrasion..got blood...yucks..and mi knee hurt like nobody's business...i rolled up my pants..luckily..mi knee din bleed..but it hurt...ya..den went for dental..

den i went to mi dad's office-sp..lib to borrow some books...ate lunch..wrote mi resume for some compani who wil help me get a job..when i got home, i realised tt mi knee..e painful one...got a huge blue black..a bit stunn..coz its quite a while since i got a blue-black..yucks lor..aniwae..i read classifieds..den saw an ad abt a clinic assist cum receptionist job..so called in..left mi no....i hope dey call back...i tink i realli want tiz one...pray God help me get a suitable job..hee..aniwae..back to mi blue black..i rubbed it with zam bak..got pinker...den daddy came back and help me rub somemore...i tink beta le...

tml..gotto go back nj to get e envelope with all mi uk stuff and send by DHL to e uk ppl...hope it gets dere in time man...ha..can get to see orientation tml..haha..



-9:13 AM

arg...nth to do..hai..mi fish..e rainbow hybrid with pink and green stripes...it died thiz morning..i din even c e body..coz i woke up at 1220...but mi dad said its v v big..bigger than expected...so sad...i bought it from yu xian..actualli frm e class stall at funtasia-NJ funfair 2003...it was small and heart-shaped...it died big and oval shape..its realli beautiful and smart( no matter wad others think..ha) at least b4 mi father dropped it on e floor and b4 it jumped out of e tank itself. sigh..but i guess hybrids die earlier than either of its parents...prob wun c such again...coz hybrid cant reproduce to give its kind...no homologous chromosomes..haha..talking abt bio..haha..

juz rmb sth too..yesterdae at chuch..mi dad and uncle poh hee was talking abt e tsunami thingy..realised its benoulli;s principle and equation of continuity in play..haha..talking abt e usefulness of physics...pressure high, velocity low and vice versa tt caused e waves to rise and rush onto e shore...me, my mum and sis and bro gave some clothes to sri lanka...i gave e clothes to weixin to bring to tekka market...coz tt wed...i went kster w wee ling squid leeting and moses..mi dad helped to get 600 bucks from his block in poly and helped in e packin of poly stuff to give to e ppl affected by tsunami...



-6:00 PM

its 1.44 am in e morn..1st january 2005 sat...i juz came back from church..went for watchnite service..1st time i stayed over pass midnite..veri fun..ha..aniwae..jurong ecc presented on behalf of e mandarin congregation..den all of us must wear collar shirts..and i dun realli have collar shirts..mi nice nice collar shirt is sleveless..den oso cannot..so i wore e working kind of clothes..look realli..er...mature..haha..i tot piano i played was quite soft..but apparently ps steven say it was quite loud..song quite touching..dunno..God amplified it..ha..my hands were shaking a little at first..den aft tt..ok la...

the youth performed...1st performance was e song-one way..hehe..cannot realli hear e words coz e music v loud...but it was funni to c everione on stage jumping..even e guitarists...onli pianists were not..haha...second performance was...er..i cannot rmb..but it was beta..at least can hear..deb was e lead female...sang real well..still got her accent in her words..not used to it..oh well..haha..

i like to hear e myanmar ppl sing..veri original..veri local flavour..like a gp..not professional..but it gives a warm feeling..so mani ppl..big famili..so nice..dunno how to describe..so catchy tune tt anione can sing..it din matter that dey were not uniform in attire..it din matter tt dey were holding on to papers that had e lyrics...could realli c their joy singing...singing to GOd...

oh ya..there was tiz testimoni tt a woman gave.. ..dunno y but i have an inclination to..it was abt tiz gurl who was e woman's daughter who had lived with eczema for 19 years(when e woman gave e testi..her daughter was still 19)..she asked God to heal her and when He did in her 19th yr of age...she asked for her hands to be used to touch/save lives..she got into medicine..i oso wan tt..i tink its so meaningful and apt..esp for her..her skin is nice now..pink colour..pretty...mm..made me reflect on how...dere are ppl beta dan me in piano..but how God used me to serve Him...realli happi...i oso wan to save and touch lives like tt gurl..meaningful career...medicine..

currently..im still jobless.yikes..started searching too late...help...argh...nvm...tuition mi bro and sis for a start...$400 per month...and tuition shirrin..juz c how mi life goes...and pray mi results will b wad i want...mi fwens goin to armi tiz wk..most of em 6th and 7th jan...goin to miss dem man...coz they are mi closer fwens...wun c dem for 3wks plus..coz cannot come out i tink...

oh ya..mi fish..rainbow colour wan...kept lying down tiz few daes..when i juz reached home..it was flat on e base of e tank...with feathery things..its skin kept fallin off....mi dad quickli changed e water and put salt and e blue blue medicine..its saved..again...thanks to e..powerpuff me..haha..aniwae..i got pray..thank God its saved...mi precious fish...hehe