Rediscovering Eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
dailies
Friday, April 22, 2005
hot, cold, hot, cold, then.....hot, cold...
-4:05 PM
mms..jus came back frm Pentecoastal meeting held at Kallang theatre...meetin was great...i had a splittin headache e moment i reached tt place coz the weather has been immensely humid and warm and i had gone frm an air-con place into the open and back into another air-con place the whole dae...aniwae...even though i had tt awful headache and had to rest my head on the top of those comfty theatre chairs, i din fall asleep..somehow i din..suprise at myself coz when i have headaches i like to slp...the sermon was realli interestin...Ps Fred Seward started by givin figures of the no. of earthquakes greater than 6.0 on the Ritcher scale, tt had occurred since many many many many years ago...prob started in the 1300s all the way till no...its interestin to noe tt...eons ago, in 500 yrs there were only 15 such earthquakes...a few years down the road, there were 15 such quakes in 50 yrs...den 15 in 10 years...and den 15 in 1 year...now it has become...no..for tiz yr alone..the first three mths...68 quakes if i din rmb wrongly...he gave the stats to show the end of times where the bible said that there would b lotsa lotsa earthquakes all over the earth...aft tt he told lotsa lotsa of stories, many were abt deliverance..realli interestin coz i love stories..esp these wif meaningful ones...
at altarcall..he asked us to ask ourselves if we knew where we would b if we died tt very moment...actualli i had a feeling tt he was goin to ask tt alreadi...coz in church durin altarcalls he always ask e same qn...years ago...i din realli noe how to ans tt qn...as in i believed Jesus, but i wasn sure whether me, tiz bad girl would go heaven...now...thankfully...when he asked tt ...i knew straightaway i would go heaven....it was without a shadow of doubt....then he handed over to this other pastor...ps patrick lam or smth...he asked us to all go to the stage area...as i prayed and lifted my hands...aft awhile..i felt it...that tingling sensation..vibration sensation...in addition to tt...when i wanted to like put down my hands...i felt an upward force on both hands...i was quite sensitive to tt...so i sort of pressed down on it a little but the force was still there ever so strong...like God was there to hold my hands up..din feel tired at all though my hands were up the whole time...there was this unseen force holding my hands...firm soft force..like hands holding mine...i guess if i realli pushed my hands down , they prob would hv gone down..but i din wan to ...wanted God's presence...i guess there were other times like these but i din realise tt someone's hands were holding mine..its realli a special feeling..and there was tiz song which i dunno e title...the lyrics spoke to me.." guide my paths..." " touch lives"...dunno if the latter were part of the song or the words the singer said..but in anycase it wasn the voice of the singer tt i heard..in fact it was like in the background..instead it was the words of the song tt spoke to me....cant realli rmb now...i was like in my own world..my head was spinning NOT from the headache..in fact e headache disappeared aft a while...the spin was someting i recognised..its when Holy Spirit comes upon you...yup..realli a special feeling tt i endear towards...
on the way back wif lucy and her hsemate-renna or venna or smth...yea..i was talking to the hsemate...shes a catholic...so i started askin her those qns we normalli ask abt catholics which we are unsure of ...like.." do you all pray to mary?" and " do you all have extra books in your bible?" so she answered...talking to her..i feel...one may get convinced by her words ..she said tt dey dun pray to mary...dey pray THRU her..as in ask her to intercede for them to Jesus ...she say dey pray only to Jesus and acknowledges only the Trinity...i din tell her wad i felt coz shes had a attitude tt told me she felt tt shes in the right..anything else i say wld prob fall on deaf ears...no offense to catholics but i feel tt..interceding..mmm...why mary?? i mean ...yes..shes Jesus's earthly mother but so? y her...if the purpose is interceding..y not disciples or anyone else...why not John the baptist who baptised Jesus? the curtain in the olden daes temple was torn down when Christ died thus allowin us to seek Him directly wad..and y do we have to intercede thru a dead person?? in church interceders are alive ppl..otherwise how to ask them to intercede...i mean..how do u pray thru someone and ask her to intercede when u cant see her and when shes dead?by doing so, it sounds like one is actualli prayin to her while tinking u are not....and wif regards to the extra chapts in their bible..she sees it as a tradition thingy passed down frm last time..tt both ours and theirs are bibles only tt ours had stuff taken out...but wad makes her sure tt our bible lacks certain stuff and not her bible have had additional stuff added to it? she oso had tiz concept tt since she is living in the present, she sld onli read new testament...she says she is not interested in the old or smth like tt if i din hear wrongli...but i tot old testament give insights to certain issues as well...as they are nice to read to give encouragements too..
i oso learned tt in catholic churches..dey have their own studying of the faith and catholism classes..takes abt a year..a student has to get a sponsor-as in someone to go wif you to all e classes to guide you(not financial aid)...girl to girl and boy to boy...den at the end of it..you choose if you wanna b baptise...den you have to choose a godmother...sounds a bit weird..but mayb tts their tradition...the sponsor and godmother have to b someone who to quote, practises catholic...dey got refresher's course tt kinda thing oso...so in e end...there are like the godmothers of the godmothers of the godmothers and it continues..
i dun believe it lar...but its interestin to learn about other beliefs so to speak...oh ya..lucy shared abt a new way to view the Holy Spirit...its like wearin your clothes...doesn always have to b It descending onto you...
oh ya..b4 i went for the meetin..i actualli went to NDC to remove my stitches-18 bucks for jus like minutes worth of work..but the doc is pro laa...the nurse had to force open my mouth at the swellin area coz i cldn open it any wider..dey literally press the tool wif the mirror on my gums..den aft tt went to office to extend leave...den went to acs international to get reference letters frm vivienne loh...its at 61 jalan hitam manis...she gave me e add but i still had to use street directory...i mean...whoever noes and heard of tt place man..she said earlier tt its near holland and although i noe holland inside out i haven heard of tt lane and indeed ...i had never gone into tt area till todae...coz its terraces and stuff ...and worse the school is located right inside so i had to walk all the way down along the rows of terraces and semi-Ds...i decided ...the students in there are either super fit coz dey walk everydae or dey are super rich and managed to get their parents who can afford the time and money to either drive them or employ a personal chauffeur...muhahaah...exercise for me man...hha...so todae actualli by mrt stations, i went to outram den douby ghaut den buona vista den kallang..oh man!!!mi expenditure...travellin is now so ex!!left wif two bucks in mi fare card when i was at kallang...had actualli planned to go outram den douby den kallang..makes more sense wad..but ms loh asked me collect e letters todae...
oh ya..i got my first choice in ntu too!! double major in biomedical sci and traditional chinese medicine..if i realli do tt i wil b its pioneering batch which is cool in mi opinion...hahah
my longest entry i itnk...hahah
